CREDIT: Instagram
"For the first time in my life, I can tell you what happiness is because I've never had it before."
Later on, she reminisced on a conversation with Erik that was her inspiration to focus on her sobriety.
"There's so much irony in this last relapse for me because I made it all the way through the pandemic, I made it all the way through. I was at my boyfriend's house, and I was s**t-faced on his couch eating pizza, and he looked over at me and I felt the way he looked at me, and I was like, 'Oh no, I never want him to look at me like that again. Ever.' Like that didn't make me feel good. What am I doing?"
She also described Erik's disappointment in her because "he hadn't seen that side of me."
"To suddenly be like, 'Well, this is the side I never wanted you to see, you've seen it. Let's hope you never meet her again,' it was embarrassing. Because for the first time ever, I actually care how he feels, and I care how my behaviour impacts him."
"I only want to be the best version of myself, for my family and for my boyfriend and my friends and I was not. I was the furthest thing away from that. I've never had a boyfriend who's supportive of me in that area before, and he is very communicative and incredible in that way. So it's really nice - and my parents like him so that's also a positive." |
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